"I had endometritis and ended up going to the ER. I had gone beyond the time to return to the maternity ward and my family doctor didn’t want to treat birth-related issues. I waited there for 13 hours with my 10-day-old baby who was exclusively breastfed, because she didn’t want to take the bottle and refused to be put down. The antibiotics they gave me turned me upside down. In addition to the exhaustion, my daughter was waking up every hour to cluster feed. Then we realized she had caught a bronchiolitis while waiting at the ER and she had to be hospitalized. I was still vulnerable because of the medicine, so I caught the c-diff. It was just after Christmas and I spent eight days in hell, in the bathroom with her on my breasts. I didn’t have any strength left: I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t drink, breastfeeding sucked the life out of me. She was so dependent of me that it felt like I didn’t even exist. I was not a wife or my son’s mother anymore, I was only her mother. She was not a happy baby. She cried a lot and was full of eczema. It was only when she started eating solids that we realized she was allergic to eggs and it passed through my milk. On top of everything, my mom got sick and I had to take care of her too. She died a couple of months after my daughter was born. I wish I could make that up."