Faces of Postpartum
Faces of Postpartum
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Pascale, Montréal-Nord (4/4)

"To be pregnant for nine months and then to spend eighteen months with your kid 24/7 is pretty incredible. It’s almost like you’re mourning something when he comes out of your body. And then two years in you think, ‘I cared for him for so long and now I have to leave him in daycare?!’ It’s really difficult. I think spending all this time with him made me dependent on him in some way. It’s hard to accept that someone else is caring for him instead of me, especially while I myself teach French to other people’s children. His babysitter’s three daughters will be coming to my high school next year and there’s a chance I’ll have them in my class. So when she takes care of my son, I’ll teach to them. There’s something strange about it. At the same time, it’s kind of beautiful. Our children don’t belong to us. They are the fruits of society and it’s important to show them that we can, and must, trust others. But as a mother… it feels like I’m not as important to him as I once was. It's hard. I'm still grieving this part of our lives together."