Faces of Postpartum
Faces of Postpartum
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Lisa, Stafford VA (3/4)

“We didn’t go out in public for a while after our sons were born, I was putting all of this trust on myself and had this ridiculous fear that people were going to steal the babies. I thought I had this gem, the biggest jewel in the world, and that everybody wanted it. I was super paranoid. Our second son has a couple of heart murmurs and every time he got tested, I was scared the cardiologist would steal him. My husband, because of his job, is very good at observing what’s going on, so I felt comfortable with him. I was thinking ’He’s not going to let anybody take the baby.’ I got better with our daughter, although for each one of them I couldn’t believe how lucky we got. It was almost like it was too good to be true. It freaked me out. Every time I got pregnant I would say to my husband ‘You don’t understand, this is on me!’ I was sure that there was a 99% chance that if something had happened to the baby, it would have been my fault. But then the babies would come out healthy, ten pounds, and he would be like, ‘You were right, this is all you: they’re perfect!’”