Faces of Postpartum
Faces of Postpartum
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Lexie, Dumfries VA (2/4)

“Delivery was great, labor was amazing, but then breastfeeding was… so hard. I was insistent because we had gone down to a single salary, and I really wanted to provide the milk for her. I was so engorged. My milk came in so hard, so fast, and I was in so much pain. I was hesitant to pump because I knew I would only make more. But I was in such pain and she also wasn't able to latch because I was so full. I had to relieve it. The second night, I ended up giving her a bottle of breast milk and she drank four ounces. The poor kid had been starving! I felt terrible. Giving her bottles was actually good and bad, because her father could do it, but I also was up at two in the morning to pump, wash things out… Pumping is a full-time job! Around two and a half months, I tried a nipple shield and she was able to latch onto that, but she was also getting bottles, and my body just couldn't figure it out. By her fourth month, I had gone through two mastitis. The whole entire breast was inflamed, I had a fever, a headache… it was terrible. At that point I said to her, ‘You've got to figure it out, kid. You're four months old and you're big enough to latch… so come on!’ And she did. I was okay with pumping, but you know you're tied to that stupid machine, and you can't go anywhere, and then you have to take bottles with you. When we got to finally breastfeed, I was like, ‘Oh my gosh, this is life!’ We weaned by 11 months. She was eating full meals with us, so why should I keep dealing with it? I didn't need that connection anymore, it was okay. I wanted my boobs back. It was hard for me at the beginning, but in the end… that was enough. We were ready.”