Josée, Montréal-Nord QC (2/4)
"After I came back home, I felt much better. My ex-husband had taken two weeks off and was helping. I’ve never been able to breastfeed though. My milk never came. But at least I got to be with my son all the time. And then, when I felt physically ok, we started to get into a little routine, just the two of us. Being alone with him, this was nice. Although I remember I dealt with a lot of guilt because I hadn’t been able to give birth to him vaginally and to nurse him. Like if it wasn’t normal or natural the way it happened. But I think that staying alone everyday with him was a way to rehabilitate myself. At least I was the one taking care of him. I slowly got my confidence back that way. Starting from then and on, everything went fine. I had to go back to work after six months, because we didn’t have the money to survive with only one salary. That was hard too. It sucks to have to leave your kid with somebody else because you have to work. I wish I could have stayed."